Tuesday, August 24, 2010


I have been feeling so weird lately that I started to worry that I might be pregnant again. For starters, I've been peeing constantly, I'm ALWAYS hungry, my belly is not getting any smaller, and of course, there's the crazy mood swings I've been going through. Then again, the peeing could just be from the gallons of water I'm guzzling to try and beat the heat. The hunger could be coming from all the exercise I've been doing with Stroller Strides. And I'm sure the belly has been there all along...I'm just imagining that I'm getting fatter (at least I hope it's just my imagination!). And of course, the hormones. I'm guessing they're just from my body returning to it's non-pregnant state. It's sure going to be interesting to see how bad PMS is post-baby!
(Oh, and I'm not pregnant...I took a test just to be sure!)
I figured that once I gave birth and got through the initial baby blues, my hormones would go back to normal. Boy, was I wrong! (Or maybe I just forgot what normal was?) I have felt so insanely hormonal lately. I love my life and my baby and I am very happy, but so often I feel stressed and depressed and worried. I know a big part of it is the fact that I don't have a job and I am feeling the pressure of needing to help bring in some income for the family. But it's more than that, I think. I know it's not PPD...it's nothing like that. Just extra bitchy-moodiness. Maybe it's the heat, too. I get sad and frustrated that I have no money and sad that I am not as skinny as I want to be. I get stressed that I have no time to work on job opportunities and fun projects. Anyway, I hope that my body will regulate itself soon. (Or maybe it won't...like I said, I forget what I used to be like pre-baby!)
 Most days though, life is good. I've decided to rearrange my priorities and put Sam and I on a more regular schedule so that she can get her naps and I can take care of the important things. I think it'll be good for us both!


Michelle said...

hahahah! I thought for SURE you were pregggos!!! Im just waiting for someone to pop the news at group :)

mrsdanigirl8 said...

I think a combination of everything life is handing you right now is what's making you hormonal. And you know what? I totally get it! There would be days that I'd just start to cry for no reason. After I started thinking about it I'd realize that it may just be from all the stress I'm under ;) Hugs!!

Alanna said...

LOL Michelle - can you imagine having 2 under 1?!? Yikes!

Dani - thank you. I never imagined how crazy hormones could get. Life sure piles on the stress sometimes!

Ronnie said...

hey girl, I love ya, and I know the feeling completely about wanting to bring in income for the family. So many times I went back and forth with going back to work. I want you to know that you are contributing to your family, you are staying home with sam and taking care of the house, that alone is a job all it itself. I can tell you that all your feeling is everything but normal, just know that things take time hormones, your tummy your body) which i think you look great and your doing all the right things with taking care of yourself and sam. If you ever need to vent and or talk you know i'm just a phone call away :) I know things can make you feel stressed and then things can lead to depression and anxiety, but just keep an eye on it and if you notice it getting worse then I would advise to see a doc. But girl your a new mommy and I think you are doing a hell of a job.. Keep up the great work girl :) love ya

zebe912 said...

I don't know if it helps, but the estimates I've seen for what a SAHM's duties are worth anually is $117,000-135,000. Even though it feels like you aren't helping financially, that's a huge number! That only partially accounts for how positively you are affecting your daughter's growth mentally. I'm not sure a number can be put on that.

Are you getting sleep? Real, consistent sleep? (Ha) Because even if everything else is going fine, being chronically low on sleep will make you feel crazy & hormonal no matter what (and that's true even without a child).

Dominique Welch said...

Hugs!!!! It's 14 months later and I'm still feeling it. Just remember to take time for yourself and recharge every once in a while. Even when we're "off duty", we're never off duty. But a nice glass of wine and a bath, while Mike watches Sam may help a little.