Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Only a few more days until my first prenatal appointment! I am really looking forward to it. I've decided to go back to my original healthcare provider rather than stay with my current insurance, so after this ultrasound, I may or may not go back to this OB. Tomorrow I have to go see my old provider and take a pee test to confirm pregnancy, and after that they will book me for an appointment. I am SO nervous for tomorrow. I don't know why...I pee on sticks on a regular basis. It's just nerve-wracking to have a medical professional do it. I guess that will make it feel even more certain, to have it confirmed by the doctor. I'm really looking forward to Monday though, when I get my ultrasound and hopefully find out what my HCG levels are!
The boobs are still sore and growing. The other night I took my bra off, and M's jaw about hit the floor. I don't notice a huge difference, but apparently he is seeing it! Another few weeks, and I'll be buying new bras. Yay!!!!
Sunday, September 27, 2009
"The big news this week: Hands and feet are emerging from developing arms and legs — although they look more like paddles at this point than the tiny, pudgy extremities you're daydreaming about holding and tickling. Technically, your baby is still considered an embryo and has something of a small tail, which is an extension of her tailbone. The tail will disappear within a few weeks, but that's the only thing getting smaller. Your baby has doubled in size since last week and now measures half an inch long, about the size of a blueberry.
If you could see inside your womb, you'd spot eyelid folds partially covering her peepers, which already have some color, as well as the tip of her nose and tiny veins beneath parchment-thin skin. Both hemispheres of your baby's brain are growing, and her liver is churning out red blood cells until her bone marrow forms and takes over this role. She also has an appendix and a pancreas, which will eventually produce the hormone insulin to aid in digestion. A loop in your baby's growing intestines is bulging into her umbilical cord, which now has distinct blood vessels to carry oxygen and nutrients to and from her tiny body."
I don't feel like I'm gaining weight yet which is a good thing, but the constipation has been BAD this week, and the bloating is beginning. Otherwise, I'm feeling pretty good!
Thursday, September 24, 2009
I have not really felt sick at all this week, but oh, the fatigue. It is really setting in. I feel like I have been up til 3 every night this week, when in fact, I've been sleeping as much as I usually do. I long for naps every day, though I've only had time to fit one in so far. (I was napping a bit ago, but I was so hungry, I couldn't sleep!) I have been hungry a lot today. I've been sticking with my small, healthy, frequent meals, but today I just haven't been able to get enough. Yesterday and today, I've been having mild cramping. It really worries me, but everything I've read says that unless it's severe cramping or I'm spotting, I don't need to worry about it. Mild cramping is normal, since it's just my uterus expanding and things moving around in there to make room for the baby.
It's weird to think that had I not taken that random test on a whim, I still wouldn't know I was pregnant! Unless my sore boobs made me suspicious, I probably would have still been waiting for my period to show up as expected. I probably would have ended up testing this coming Saturday. So crazy!
Time is getting closer and closer to my first appointment. I can't wait!
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Baby is about the size of a pea now. He or she is growing so quickly! No wonder I am SO tired lately, and I am feeling so nauseous. Baby is taking all my energy! I'm going to have to start taking naps soon, or I'm not going to make it through the week!
Baby is starting to sprout eyes, ears, nose, cheeks and chin. Those little hands and feet - still webbed like paddles - might wiggle by week's end, the heart is beating (almost twice as fast as mine!), and blood is starting to circulate.
As far as me, not too much has changed. The morning sickness is coming more frequently now, but it's still not too bad. Smells are REALLY bothering me now, and I definitely feel more nauseous than I did at first. Still not throwing up though - I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I won't! I still don't feel like I'm bloated at all, but the boobies are definitely filling out. Two more weeks until my first appointment and ultrasound!!!
Oh yes, and I took my next digital pregnancy test - still pregnant!
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Today has been kind of a rough one. While I am thrilled that it's Friday, and we are getting ready to kick off Mike's birthday weekend, I personally am not feeling so hot. I have decided to swear off beans for eternity. I had been cutting back due to some, well, issues. But I love them so much, that occasionally I will be bad and eat a burrito. Apparently my body is NOT cool with that anymore. Last night was pretty miserable, and it's carried over into today. I don't feel like I'm going to throw up or anything, but I just have that general icky feeling. I was only able to eat about 5 bites of my lunch before I just had to stop. It's not enough that I need to be home in bed, but I just feel SO gross and uncomfortable in my stomach. Most food totally grosses me out.
On top of that, I am SOOO tired today. I want to do nothing but curl up and take a nap. I don't want to go out tonight...I want to go home and go to bed. Thankfully we have no plans - I may be sending Mike out on his own to hang out with his buddies.
On a brighter note, I think the sore boobs are starting to pay off. Yesterday they hurt incredibly, and when I took my bra off, there was definitely a change. They still are small...but they are fuller, and don't look like mine anymore! This morning I had to take the push-up pads out of my bra so that my boobs would fit inside comfortably. Ah, such relief today. :) Now the next thing to look forward to is buying a BIGGER bra! :)
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
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|Pre-pregnancy weight?:||137 (embarrassing that I let it get that high! I've already lost weight since being pregnant.)|
|About The Father|
|Are you still together?:||yes!|
|About Your Pregnancy|
|Is this your first pregnancy?:||yes|
|When did you find out you were pregnant?:||9/5/09|
|Was it planned?:||yes|
|What was your first reaction?:||Total shock - I already thought I was out of the running for the month, since I THOUGHT I had gotten a period. I guess I was wrong!|
|Who was with you when you found out?:||no one|
|Who was the first person you told?:||Mike, of course!|
|How did your parents react?:||They were thrilled!|
|How far along are you?:||5 weeks|
|What was your first symptom?:||Sore boobs and I was VERY irrationally irritable.|
|What is your due date?:||5/16/10|
|Do you know the sex of the baby?:||not yet|
|If so, what is it?:|| |
|Have you picked out names?:||not yet|
|If so, what are they?:|| |
|How much weight have you gained?:||I've lost 2 pounds so far.|
|Do you have stretch marks?:||No|
|Have you felt the baby move?:||No|
|Have you heard the heartbeat?:||No|
|About the birth|
|Will you keep the baby?:||Of course!!!!|
|Home or hospital birth?:||Hospital|
|Natural or medicated birth?:||Medicated...I don't do pain.|
|Who will be in the delivery room with you?:||Mike. I'm looking into a doula, but I have no idea yet.|
|Will you breastfeed?:||Yes|
|Do you think you'll need a c-section?:||I hope not, but I'm not scared if it happens that way.|
|Will you cry when you hold the baby for the first time?:||Most likely. I'm already ridiculously emotional!|
|What's the first thing you might say to him/her?:||I can't even imagine...but something along the lines of "I love you."|
|Would you let someone videotape the birth?:||No way.|
|Are you excited about the birth, or scared?:||I'm trying not to think about the details of it just yet! For now I'm excited.|
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Well, I seem to be moving out of the "I have absolutely no appetite" phase and into the "always hungry" phase. I'm not completely there yet, but my appetite is definitely back to normal. Although it's still hard to find food that sounds appealing - the thought of eating most things totally grosses me out. My first gross-out food is shrimp. The smell of it grosses me out, and so does the taste. What a bummer, since it's something we usually eat a lot of!
Also. Being the sweets-hater that I am, something strange happened today. I always love to browse the dessert case at Seaside Market, but I NEVER buy anything. I just don't do sweets. They look delicious, but the thought of eating them usually grosses me out. Well, today, my eyes stumbled upon a luscious looking Creme Brulee Cheesecake, and it was love at first sight. Vanilla bean cheesecake with creme brulee topping. Yummmm.... I wanted to buy a slice. I didn't do it, because my sandwich was already big enough, but wow. I actually WANTED dessert. Oh boy. I cannot let this become a regular thing for me!!!
Another new development - my face is starting to break out. And I've been washing it regularly, so I know that's not the culprit. Yikes. I hope this won't become a huge problem for me!
Today I am 5 weeks pregnant! Baby is the size of a sesame seed now, and growing quickly. I am feeling little twinges in my uterus as it expands, and I am really noticing more pressure on my bladder now! Thankfully the nausea has subsided for these past two days, but my boobs are sorer than ever! I am noticing that they are more full than they used to be, but they don't seem to be any larger yet.
M is SO nervous about me being pregnant, it's kind of funny. Yesterday he told me that he was concerned because he didn't know what he could and couldn't do with me now. I told him not to worry - pretty much anything other than horseback riding or violent jumping and bouncing would be okay. We can continue life as usual for now! He expressed that he was concerned about whether or not we could have sex, and I assured him that we don't need to stop at all. I forget sometimes how squeamish he is about stuff like this. I started describing things to him, in what I thought were simple terms, and he started getting totally grossed out at the mention of words like "placenta" or even "fluid." Even the thought of the baby getting a heartbeat soon started to make him look a little pale! I think that having him come to my first prenatal appointment will be good for him. That way he can ask any questions to the doctor, and hopefully they will make him feel a bit more comfortable. I'm hoping that seeing the ultrasound and hearing the heartbeat will make him feel a little more relaxed, and a little less squeamish. I think that once it really starts looking like a baby instead of an embryo, he'll be a little more okay with seeing pictures. :) I know he'll be fine. I just have to remember that he hasn't been preparing himself mentally for all these internal changes like I have!
I bought 4 digital HPTs so that I can test every week up until my doctor appointment. I used one this morning, and I was SOOOO nervous! Even though I know that two pink lines means "pregnant," for some reason I felt like I needed to see the word. I was so afraid for some reason that the digital test would be negative. But nope, right on time, it popped up saying "Pregnant." Yay! I keep going back in the bathroom to look at the test results. It makes me so happy! I will use the last 3 tests, one at a time, every Sunday morning until my appointment. I know I'm weird...but it makes me feel better. :)
Today I told all my girlfriends that I was pregnant. It's so great to have my friends in on the secret (not that it's really a secret anymore!). M of course is telling everyone, like it's nothing. I almost told everyone at work today. We went to lunch at Wine Steals, and I figured it would be the perfect time to tell them when I turned down a glass of wine. It didn't quite work out that way though. Everyone was talking when the wine came, so they just started filling glasses. I put a hand over mine and said I wasn't having any. They asked if I was serious, and L asked me why. I just said "I can't", intending to say more, but she just said "Oh." in kind of a hushed tone, like she understood that I didn't want to talk about it. Everyone was still in the middle of their conversation, so I just let it go. I'm sure L has her suspicions, but nobody said anything else about it. I'll take that as my sign that I should wait to tell them. Everyone I've talked to says it's best to tell work later, rather than sooner. Even if they do suspect, I guess I'll keep it a secret for a while longer.
We just found out that we didn't get this house we were hoping for, so I don't know where that puts us now. I guess we start planning for our babymoon, since we aren't likely to get a house before the first-time home-buyer credit ends. I know the roommie probably isn't planning to stick around until baby comes, and I know we can't afford to live here on our own, so we'll probably have to find a cheaper rental eventually. But for now, I just want to plan a nice, relaxing vacation, and forget about work and houses. I want some time to just enjoy time as a married couple...just the two of us...before baby makes three.
I just peed on a stick again. I don't know why, but I still can't really believe it. I keep analyzing the instructions and the results, making sure that two lines DOES, in fact, mean I'm pregnant. This time, the second line again showed up immediately, long before the control line, but it was WAY darker than the control line. I assume that means that my hCG levels are getting even higher, which is a good thing, I think. Tomorrow I am going to buy a pack of digital tests. I want to be able to confirm weekly until my prenatal appointment that I am still pregnant. And I want to SEE the word "pregnant" - no more of these silly lines! It's funny, when we were still TTC, I almost never POAS unless AF was late. Now that I am pregnant, I am constantly testing! It's still so surreal!
The nausea wasn't so bad today. The constipation is still annoying, but it's manageable. I know that all these little things are definitely the symptoms of a pregnant woman, but I can't wait until I actually FEEL pregnant. I want to have a baby bump and feel the baby moving. I welcome any symptom with open arms - I wouldn't trade any of it for the world!
I have been really stressing out about when to tell everyone about the baby. I am REALLY struggling with this. We've already told our parents, siblings, and our BFFs. But when to tell the rest of our friends and the general public?
I feel like we should wait until my 8-week visit, because I'm paranoid like that. But at the same time, I don't know if I can wait a whole month to share the news! M thinks we should just go ahead and tell everyone. If something happens (God forbid!) we will just have to tell everyone about that too.
I'm really struggling with telling my work. I have a boss who is kind of evil, and I wouldn't put it past her to decide not to give me a raise for some stupid reason (she's denied me a raise for a BS reason once already). But I feel like they should know, since I'll be going to the doctor a lot, and not feeling well, and all. I want them to know before I broadcast the news to everyone else. I'm not planning to stay after the baby comes...but they don't need to know that. I do want to stick out for the next 8 months so I have insurance to cover my prenatal care, as well as getting my maternity SDI leave. It would be awesome to have a raise for my last 6 months here (supposedly we will review my salary again in November), but I don't know if it's worth stressing out over a couple hundred dollars a month.
I'm tired of stressing about this, but I don't know what to do! I guess a lot of it depends on what happens with the house situation.
In the meantime, I'm feeling really nauseous today. Not like I'm going to throw up or anything...just overall yucky. I finally pooped this morning, which was awesome! I really have no appetite though. Around 10AM I finally got hungry for breakfast, but I wasn't able to finish my oatmeal without feeling sick. I think I'm going to go buy some Psi Bands today to help with the nausea.
On the bright side, there is a new baby boutique opening downstairs from my office. It is scheduled to open some time this month. When I first saw the sign go up, I was wishing and hoping that I'd be pregnant by the time it opened - and now I am!!!! I can't wait until it opens so I can buy something cute for baby! :)
The pregnancy constipation is really starting to bother me today! I'm not really having any other symptoms...I don't even feel that tired today!...but the constipation is causing some gas pains, and my abdomen in general is NOT comfortable. I hope this will pass soon, although I don't expect it to! I will be taking Metamucil from now on. I was hoping this wouldn't be an issue for me, since I've always struggled with constipation, but I guess I kind of knew it was coming! Other than that, I definitely have the pregnancy brain! I feel so scatterbrained. I can't focus, and I keep making stupid little mistakes! Oh boy! :P
On the bright side, today I told my sister and my best girlfriends about the baby. It feels SO good to be able to go to my new mommy friends with questions now - it was so hard keeping it a secret! I can't wait to tell everyone else! I don't know when to tell everyone at work yet. It seems like 3 months is the going time frame, but that seems like SO long. If I let everyone else know after two months, they will definitely know at work too. I'd like to let them know before my first appointment so they'll understand why I have to go to the doctor frequently. I might tell them on Friday, if they decide to break out the wine. We will see!
This afternoon, my boobs suddenly started hurting again. It was like they suddenly grew, and were weighing me down. It was a crazy feeling! I had to look at them to make sure they weren't rapidly expanding before my eyes. It is a relief to me that my symptoms are still kickin'. I was a teeny bit paranoid that the breast tenderness went away, so I am glad it's back. And, I hope it means they are going to start growing soon! :)
Today I am having a really hard time not telling people my secret. Part of me wants to go ahead and start telling close friends, and part of me wants to wait. I booked my first prenatal appointment for Monday morning, October 5th. We will have an ultrasound that morning. Right now only our parents and a couple very close friends know, and I am so nervous to tell anyone else. I have spent way too much time reading stories of other women having miscarriages, and I am so scared that it will happen to me. I don't want to spend my whole pregnancy in fear and stress, but it's hard not to worry. I know that M and I are both healthy, and our family history is good, so there is really no reason to worry. I am trying my best to just enjoy things as they come, and not worry too much about what might happen. I will probably just take a few more pregnancy tests before my first doctor appointment to make sure that I am still pregnant! I am going to try to hold out on telling everyone until after my ultrasound, but I think I'll probably end up telling my girlfriends sooner!
So far, I don't seem to have any major symptoms. My boobs still feel very full, as they have since the start of my last cycle. The tenderness seems to be subsiding for now. M can't wait until they really start growing! I've had a lot of headaches, but that's been an issue since I stopped taking my migraine medicine. No worries...I can deal with that! Yesterday we stopped at Barona Casino on our motorcycle ride, and the smoke and the air in there really made me feel nauseous. The bumpy ride on the way home made my stomach even more upset. This morning when I woke up, my lower back hurt a little bit, but that didn't last long. All day long, I had short waves of nausea, but nothing major. I did go to the gym, but I couldn't work out too hard because of my nausea. Other than that, I've gotten little uterus twinges now and then, and that's about the extent of my symptoms! I'm surprised I haven't been hungry, since a lot of my friends say they were ravenous when they first got pregnant, but my appetite has been half what it usually is. I'm hoping to lose some weight at first, with the lack of alcohol. Maybe I can lose my beer belly before the baby belly starts! I really can't wait til my bump shows though!
Letter to Baby
September 7, 2009
This has been an exciting weekend for us! This has been the first weekend that Mommy knew you she was pregnant with you. The first day, after Mommy told Daddy, she was really tired, and didn't feel like doing very much. Yesterday, all three of us went out to look for houses to buy. Right after that, we picked up Grandpa Daryl from the airport, and told him that we were expecting you. He was very excited to find out that he was going to be a Grandpa! That afternoon, we had our first day together at the Del Mar Races, and that night, we went to the movies.
Today, we went on our first motorcycle ride together! Mommy didn't want to go, but Daddy asked her to please come with him and Grandpa, so we had an adventure and went riding all over town. It was actually a lot of fun!
We have already done so much together. We went to see Daddy's band play about a week ago. And, I didn't know it, but you already went to your first Chargers game with Mommy and Daddy! We watched the Chargers beat the 49ers. That was the night before Mommy found out she was pregnant. You'll be going to your next Chargers game (regular season!) when they play the Ravens on the 20th. We are going for Daddy's birthday, and he doesn't know yet! I can't wait to take you to your first game after you are born!
Check it out!
I have SOOOO many more pictures, but sadly, I don't have them ready for upload. Stay tuned...I'll get them on here eventually!
Oh yeah....and I'm pregnant!The first three tests I took. Whoa.